Eminem has ALWAYS had my heart and ear ever since his first song, "My Name Is." But this song "Spacebound," off his newest album has me on something else.
I am a person who is hard on love. I am hard on love because, although I crave it, the actual reality of finding that person is very slim. In my life I have not been presented with any good examples of how to make a healthy love last, and how to suppress what should not be. This, subconsciously, has hindered me from reaching out and giving even a snippet of myself over without a MAJOR fight. For instance, my guy is still relatively in the dark as far as what has TRULY shaped me. I have admitted to a VERY trustworthy person that I have the tendency to wait until I have everything figured out before I was to even attempt to mention anything about myself. I guess that I am not one for "weathering the storm" with a security net close by. I just feel that my past is not as massive as the next persons', so I keep it to myself because I would feel that if I was to share, that I would be acting on selfishness. However, when I did tell this person, it was rather heavy to them. I honestly don't see it, but I take them to be genuine.
Back to the lecture at hand.
In this song, Eminem speaks of someone who just appeared out of nowhere and "took my breath away." He even dubbed them a supernova. The chorus reads as followed: "I'm a spacebound rocketship, and your hearts' still the moon. And I'm aiming right at you.......right at you." He goes on deeper into the feeling of an overwhelming euphoria that comes with the feeling of being in love. The feelings that he expressed throughout this song, is the EXACT way that I feel. I have never felt this way before. And, as I expressed in an earlier blog, probably never will experience this high again. I understand that this is a very real possibility, even though the "hopeless romantic" side of me will rebel. The last verse spoke of the person moving on, leaving Eminem still in DEEP love with this person. This escalates to him committing a "heat of passion" crime. Once the person is dead, he proceeds to committ suicide, as if they were supposed to live and die together.
Now I am not dangerously in love, but I am madly into him. In fact, I just confessed it, although he had already known such ha! He asked me on multiple occassions whether or not I was indeed in love with him. I would just brush it off, neglecting to inform him of the journey that was taken by myself to get to him. He thinks that he had to find himself to be with me; little does he know how much soul searching I STILL have to do to be right for him.
HE HAS TAKEN MY BREATH AWAY; HE'S MY SUPERNOVA.
I plan to keep onto him........for he has decided to do this for me a long time ago.
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