I have two love of my lifes: my wife and my boyfriend.
My wife is so AMAZING, and for clarification this is a play-thing. She makes me happy in every single way. Even when we are fussing back and forth with one another, I love the time that we spend together, except when she's misbehaving lol. If she were a guy, I would have asked her a LONG time ago to marry me lol. SHE IS ALMOST PERFECT!!! The only thing is, I am not attracted to her physically.
My boyfriend is a mess and a half of great loving. He is AMAZING. He makes me happy in every single way. Even when we are fussing back and forth with one another, I love the time that we spend together, except when he's misbehaving lol. I am happy that he is a male, because two females like this in my life would be so difficult to handle. HE IS PERFECT!!!
They are both kind, smart, gentle, attentive, nurturing, sweet, loveable, WAY PAST TOLERABLE, generous, cuddly lol, and they visibly care about and love me! I have NEVER had that come from someone who was NOT family. They have forced their ways, literally, into my heart and mind and soul. I cannot see myself without them next to me. Their mere presence makes me feel complete. They are who I go to with a problem or delimma. They are my shoulders to lean on. They have become my solid, my Jamrock. The best thing about it is, my boyfriend is at home, and my wife is here with me, so no infridging on space is occurring. They have me all to theirselves, HA, when I am in my respected area. I just wish that they were not two different people, and that they were one. This would be WAY less confusing as far as emotions go. I know where I stand in my sexuality, but gosh feelings make you forget. Maybe this is not such a bad thing though.
ARE WE SUPPOSED TO BE GENDER-BLIND WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE???
If so then I am screwed, because the male physique excites the hell out of me, but love just levels a MAJOR smack in the face with blind eyes and hear no evil see no evil sermons.
I HATE HAVING EMOTIONS!!!
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